To Kurt Cocaine

I'll be answering in the same language,Kurt,because I can express myself rather easily like this,too.
The objective is still there to me... I still believe that we can go far. Somethings change,some not,some are just modified a little. My dream of making great music with you guys is still there. But things happen. We have our lives,our own things to ponder.
Well, I can only speak for myself. Right now,I worry about school, about my mental health,that is,thanks to God,improving, about my parents,to who I must make an effort to be good,and to me,of course. But I must think about my friends,my own desires of playing and making music everyday, my house,which I must take care of, and many other things. Even my love life is a great part of my daily thoughts.I'll be worrying with my job soon, since I got one today, at school. It'll only start next semester, but still,another thing to manage.
What I'm trying to say is that people have things to do,to think,to ponder,to release,to express,all this and much more. But that doesn't mean that our dreams fade like that. Sure,we wished things could be done everyday,or once in a while,but that's not always possible. We try, and even that's not always easy.
I love music,I really do,but my life's much more than that. I prefer not to put all my hopes on one thing,but in many,because if that thing ends in one way or another,I lose myself. I try to have a rich life,full of everyday wonders and delights. Even if the band is not going as well as we hoped, it doesn't mean it ends,or it stops, or anything like that. It's just going through a fase,that's all.
People that live out of music professionaly take years to compose, write and record a great album that will be really good. And they have just that to do! We have much more. We seek to do this right,so we must have a little patiente.

My faith is still here,untouched. I love you guys, you helped me and taught me many things. I won't ever forget that. Our time is still to come.

I still have things to believe in. I won't give up. As long as I'm here with my Masamune, we can make the dream come true. All of us. Together.

Hang in there,Kurt. Believe in me,in yourself,and in the dream. You are part of it, and it is a part of you, too.

See, God? I'm being strong, just like you asked me to be. For You and for me. I don't think I'm worthless anymore, or miserable. Thank you.


Mike Istvan